2008 has gone with the wind. Like a breeze, it ended so fast!
I have been reflecting on my life for some time on random stuff probably at least hmm.. from 3 years back till now.
However, for this whole year I really thank God for - every little blessing, seen and unseen that he have placed upon me. - answering my prayers in His own most unique personal way - my family - my current job - my churchmates & cell group - my poly clique especially J, ling, wen and fionamyvalentine
and many more.
This year seems to have been a year of lesser knowledge/theory since there's no school (haha) but definitely more life-changing lessons than ever. I have earned lots of happy memories and of cos gone thru bad ones too. Made many good decisions and regret making some too. Not totally regretting though cos they have made me a stronger person. And now that I have gone thru my mistakes, hopefully I will not make the same ones again! and probably I can help others out some day :)
Seen a lot of the current world, the reality especially during my current job and the people around me then I realised how naive I'm. So 2009 shall be a year I learn to be a more non-naive person? Ahah. Yeah, and I would want to understand myself better in terms of my thoughts cos I can get quite confused by them. And then I will end up feeling rather strange and weird about myself. Got to learn to differentiate and interpret them (if that's even possible). Oh I need to be more patience, bold and tactful with my words too.
I did came up with a few more other conclusions which I'm not very sure if they are really conclusions. I tried to piece up the bits and pieces of many things together including my thoughts and feelings, and it only goes to show certain truth which I'm not sure if I have fabricated them up myself. Confused. I'm scared to face it and I'm choosing not to face it. I don't wanna make mistakes cos I'm afraid of losing things. I decided to put these unsure stuff aside, not gonna do anything. Time will resolve them, I hope. I'm an emo kid. Ha.
I pray that those thoughts, feelings and emotions that I should not have and does not belong to me to fade away. Cos I got to move on. (: Alright anyways I still have a long way to run. Gonna be very busy in the preparation for open house. Need to be even more committed and excel in work. And I'm thinking of heading australia or london to further my studies though I hope I can stay in Singapore. Not sure if I should try applying ntu again cos I know chances are low. Hmm London is not bad choice eh! :D
2009 here I come. I'm so gonna live by faith and not by sight, clinging on to Your goodness and continue to grow in Your love! (:
