Life

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Thank you

Just want to thank all who have wished me and celebrated my 21st birthday for me. And for all the presents too. Yeah, I know I'm like so.. late. Hahah. I totally enjoyed myself and I love all the cards and presents many many. :D

I spent the longest time celebrating my birthday this year. It feels like as if everyday is my birthday. Ate tons of dinners, bbq food, cakes and sang happy birthday songs. Took zillion amount of photos too.

It feels kinda weird actually. But.. I really really enjoyed all the fellowships.

Really.

So.. thank you! (:

♥ - 11:46 PM

Friday, February 27, 2009

Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it is a hunger
An endless aching need

I say love it is a flower
And you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong

Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed
That with the sun's love
In the spring
Becomes the rose

The Rose - Olivia Ong

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I want to buy a Nikon camera soonnnn. I'm tired of borrowing and returning the camera reluctantly. :( Probably considering a second hand due to my own economic crisis. Let me know if you got any lobang okay. Thanks.

♥ - 3:54 PM

Friday, February 20, 2009

Life has been hectic. To add on to that hectic life, I experienced how assumptions and words can cause destruction. And especically an extra element is added in this time round. Which is: Distrust. It's disappointing to know that even people whom you trusted most are showing that element against you.

Everything was did out of faith. Probably I care too much of what people think of me. But seriously, tell me who don't?

Just wait till I get over this. It gonna boost my feedback immune system.
Whatever nonsense comments people gonna give, it will just be music to my ears. Sick of people who hallucinates and starts giving comments they deem so right that stabs you from the back. And now I kinda understand why there are kids who are not able to connect to their parents.

Okay enough of rants.

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Gonna change url and skin soon. Need a change!

♥ - 9:55 AM

Monday, February 02, 2009

Weekends (:

Saturday

Met up with church mates for kfc dinner and headed down to a One Love Awakening prayer meeting. To be honest, I was expecting the whole thing to be either boring or maybe neutral initially. Yeah.. :l But I was so so so wrong. It's amazing when so many youth come together to praise and worship Him. (: There were more than 120 I think. Every youth was filled with passion and fire. His presence was so strong! All the shouts, praises, sharing, visions, prayers and tears really touched my heart.

http://onelove.sg/ Nothing inside yet.. BUT there's a facebook link there. Do check it out!

Sunday

Had a mass CNY celebration in church. Got to lou hei again! hahah.. I only like the crispy crackers. The rest of the sour stuff are quite errr... Weird.

After which it was Minds Cafe with many church mates. They had a promotion and everyone only spent 9.6 bux to play 5 hours with free flow of softdrinks with 2 orders of chips! Very worth it. Had a good fellowship with so much laughter. Played many games that cannot be found any where else. Screamed alot too. Haha.

Pictures will be up soon :) Or maybe I will choose to just upload to facebook.

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I can't wait for God's plans to unfold in Y5. Excited yet feeling reserved. I really hope I can handle. In His strength! (:

♥ - 12:26 AM

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Mummy it's over! :(

Okay. Holis over.
Dragged myself back to work today.
Tons of stuff are waiting for me to do.

Time to get serious and FOCUS!

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Empty me.
More of You and less of me.

♥ - 8:42 AM

Monday, January 26, 2009

Happy Chinese New Year

Pull your ear okay? Ahh, randomness. Had a fabulous reunion dinner at granny's place just now. My granny is very old but super cute please! She was standing by the stove scooping out oil from the soup...

Me: I help you scoop can? You go and sit down.
Granny: Don't want. I know you just want to play with the soup.
Me: !?!

Hahah...

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Stage

When the stage is bare tonight
There's no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees

- The God I know, CHC

♥ - 12:47 AM

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Travel

Went to biopolis yesterday and today for a conference and a workshop. It has been so long since I traveled like this. The whole journey to and fro was so filled with thoughts.

♥ - 12:01 AM

Monday, January 12, 2009

Fast pace

Open house was a mad rush! Everything was very disorganized, last minute and chaotic. Stayed back till 11pm when I hear the air-con shut off for several nights. And finally, it's over and done. I still had fun tho. Was in charge of the games room thus got to do some crafts and decorations. (:

The Atrium

My table was like that for almost 1 week. I eat my meals, snacks and even power nap on it. The orange thingy is a huge food pyramid. Only 1 banana was used for the food pyramid in the end. I ate some and distributed the rest out. I tied a white triangular bandage to make my chair more cool. Thought I can make it like some SIA seat but failed.

Tour guides leading visitors to the games room.

Secondary school kids who went to the games room. :)

Decorations by Year 1 & 2s. Reminds me of my poly days doing the paintings with my classmates for Open House.

Cosplay club member doing origami. These 2 clubs were just side by side. Anyway I like his hair! Advertising for gatsby? Haha. Not sure what character is this though..

Silat.

Collage of School of Chemical & Life Sciences photos. It's really big.

Bet nobody knows that the night view from nyp block Q level 7 can be like that. It's quite a relaxing location. The night breeze is awesome.

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Some photos from Esplanade.

Light up

She broke the silence with life.

Fullerton Hotel

Censoreddd

Hmm, i think so too. Silence.

♥ - 10:57 PM

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Reflections

2008 has gone with the wind. Like a breeze, it ended so fast!

I have been reflecting on my life for some time on random stuff probably at least hmm.. from 3 years back till now.

However, for this whole year I really thank God for
- every little blessing, seen and unseen that he have placed upon me.
- answering my prayers in His own most unique personal way
- my family
- my current job
- my churchmates & cell group
- my poly clique especially J, ling, wen and fionamyvalentine

and many more.

This year seems to have been a year of lesser knowledge/theory since there's no school (haha) but definitely more life-changing lessons than ever. I have earned lots of happy memories and of cos gone thru bad ones too. Made many good decisions and regret making some too. Not totally regretting though cos they have made me a stronger person. And now that I have gone thru my mistakes, hopefully I will not make the same ones again! and probably I can help others out some day :)

Seen a lot of the current world, the reality especially during my current job and the people around me then I realised how naive I'm. So 2009 shall be a year I learn to be a more non-naive person? Ahah. Yeah, and I would want to understand myself better in terms of my thoughts cos I can get quite confused by them. And then I will end up feeling rather strange and weird about myself. Got to learn to differentiate and interpret them (if that's even possible). Oh I need to be more patience, bold and tactful with my words too.

I did came up with a few more other conclusions which I'm not very sure if they are really conclusions. I tried to piece up the bits and pieces of many things together including my thoughts and feelings, and it only goes to show certain truth which I'm not sure if I have fabricated them up myself. Confused. I'm scared to face it and I'm choosing not to face it. I don't wanna make mistakes cos I'm afraid of losing things. I decided to put these unsure stuff aside, not gonna do anything. Time will resolve them, I hope. I'm an emo kid. Ha.

I pray that those thoughts, feelings and emotions that I should not have and does not belong to me to fade away. Cos I got to move on. (:

Alright anyways I still have a long way to run. Gonna be very busy in the preparation for open house. Need to be even more committed and excel in work. And I'm thinking of heading australia or london to further my studies though I hope I can stay in Singapore. Not sure if I should try applying ntu again cos I know chances are low. Hmm London is not bad choice eh! :D

2009 here I come. I'm so gonna live by faith and not by sight, clinging on to Your goodness and continue to grow in Your love! (:

♥ - 2:17 PM

Sunday, December 28, 2008

My Sleeping Partner

My 10 years of sleeping partner was murdered by my mum yesterday! Ahhh 10 years of relationship is gone and I seriously cannot get use to it. Yesterday's night sleep is not as shiok any more. And I don't like my new sleeping partner. I really really really miss

my cotton pillow :( Haha. Sound like some mocca advertisement. But I really do miss hugging my pillow loads. It has been with me when I watch tv, revise for exams including O levels and poly, do projects/reports/presentations, zillions of sleeps, power naps and sometimes I even eat snacks with it. Serious.

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I had a evening nap just now and had a strangely exciting dream. It goes like this..

I was in school (Not nyp please. getting sick of it haha) and I saw someone lying on the floor bleeding. So I ran as fast as I could to get a first aid kit. Then apparently school was under quite alot of renovations with many trucks filled with sand. I finally got my first aid kit and was running back frantically, suddenly a few trees fell along my way as I ran. I was glad I did not get wrecked by them.

So continue running then I was at this one way path where suddenly a pile of sand came crashing down infront of me. I moved back and another pile of sand came crashing down behind me. I am stucked! And the dream ended here cos' my mama shouted at me asking me to wake up. Ahh.. I have not save the person! I tried to go back and sleep to see if my dream can continue but could not.

Now that I think of it, I could have just call the ambulance then I would have save all the drama mama and my energy to run so much. Ahahah..

♥ - 11:22 PM

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

All I want for Christmas is..

Super duper happy blessed merry Christmas my friends! :B
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Had a mini christmas party in the afternoon with my colleagues and boss. Was really fun especially the designing of gingerbread man/woman/house. Haha. And we had gift exchange too. (: Oh, it's half day today! Woots.

Little santa deco

Designing my gingerbread kids

Done!

Our gingerbread house!

A gift from my secret santa claus (:

Happy happy.

My gift as a secret santa claus

A bunch of happy people.

♥ - 9:08 PM

Monday, December 22, 2008

Solitary

♥ - 11:48 AM

Weekend Mission Accomplished

I got it cleared already and I got over this weird/confused feeling. So you guys don't even think of taking this chance to kick me.

I lost my pair of Asics 2 weeks ago. Got stolen and this got me on my tears for some reason.

I lost my toe nail last week. Yeah, almost the whole piece was gone. Not sure what happened, found it dangling at the edge when I was struggling to get myself to sleep and I just pulled the whole thing off. Quite gross. I think I kicked the chair that night and then I was too tired to remember it.

So what's the next thing to lose this week?

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Woke up at 6 plus, headed to school to open up level 6 and 7 lab doors for some maintenance people to do their thing. Went to church for service and headed back to school to open the doors again! Went back to church to join the youths for BBQ. And when I was about to leave to meet my secondary friends, one of my colleague msged me and asked me if I can go back to school to check out on the -80C freezers.

I almost fainted by the road side please. Did not go back to school again again though.

♥ - 1:48 AM